I have a journaling Bible that my dear husband bought for me a couple of Christmases ago, and I adore the fact that I don't have to scribble in 2-point font in small margins anymore. At least that's how I imagined things going.
I have a couple of Bibles I love, and they carry tear stains, coffee stains, highlighting, comments...They are well-worn. But not this one. This one doesn't have any marks from my pen at all.
It's so beautiful I haven't been able to bring myself to write in it. What if I don't like how I take notes in it? Do I need to have a color-coding system?
I was recently discussing my conundrum with my friend Theanny, and I told her, "It's my baby!"
She gently reminded me that babies grow up, and that it's a messy process. Simply put: I had allowed my perfectionism to get in the way of my enjoying my Christmas present.
It sounds silly when I put it that way, but that's the truth.
Too often we are susceptible to fearing things God never intended us to: others' opinions, failure, or even of not measuring up to our own standards of perfectionism. We can cause these fears to cripple our writing or whatever it is that God has called us to. Fear can make us want to hide our gifts under the proverbial bushel, but that's not what gifts are for! Gifts are given for use!
So with all of that being said, I'm writing in my Bible today. It's time for me to let go of ideas of perfection.
How about you? What step do you need to take to overcome the fear of using your gifts?
Isaiah 43:1 “Don’t fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine.”